i miss updating my blog

i have been qiute busy lately.with school n suff.as u guys noe o levels are just around the corner.study study study....hehe...as if...tmrrw gg out with galfriends.can't wait but i have to bring my sister along.like wat the heck lah seyh.hmm....and on wednesday i got a date..argh!!!!so so happy lah seyh.actually it is suppose to be on last thurs but he needs to work..kind of sad but i have to understand his work an....tkpe lah....btw i love u so much n i miss u....

i miss you babylove!!!

ouh my....i miss u so badly.i wanna u to be here right by my side right now.i wanna hug u tightly, talk to u, hold ur hand, look into ur eyes and many more.if possible i want to be with you every second of my life seyh.every second i think of u.wondering wat are u doing, have u eaten and many more.u never failed to put  a smile on my face.u make my day...it's like i can't live without u.i want u to keep ur promise.i'll give u ur birthday present when i meet u.don't forget my ring with our names on it for our birthday.the places i want to go with u are sentose, vivo city, eat at bedok corner.....hmmm...can't wait.....


I MISS YOU BADLY!!!!


I'M SO IN LOVE WITH YOU!!! 

i'm freaking sad

i dunno y must ppl come my way when i juz wanna be happy.cn i juz like live my on life?i wanna go far far away frm them right.i had enough n i dun thnk i can take it anymore.it's really tough for me to go through all this.wat makes them thnk i can't have a bf at my current age.i can take care of myself.have they receive any news that i'm pregnant or smethng.pls lah.no rite!!!!!!!!i'm so sick of all this.i love him means i love him.3 years n u xpect us to lyke wat break up.NO WAY!no one cn do us apart.dun jugde the book by it's cover lah seyh.fuck lah...i'm so luck to have him by my side.at least i have smeone to talk to.u wan me to change u go ahead n change first then i will.if not dream on...i'm glad that he called mym um.bt i still dun understand y my dad still want to make it a big deal.i've had enough.stop all this.i wan to grow fast.i want to end all this stuff.i really want it to end.

this is part of the conversation.after 10 and a half months of waiting we are finally together.om my....can't even describe how happy i am.yesterday then i realise how much i still love him.seriously i'm not lying.this is for you my dear.....

i hate the fucking bitches!!!!

what the fuck.u did smthing n u dun hve the initiative to apologise ke pe sia.fuck uh!!!grow up lah people.u're gonna graduate soon.so treasure the friendships lah.come on....i dunno wat are they thnking abt sia.like pls lah.why did u cry in the first.isn't it to prove that u're not guilty of doing it.fuck off!peoplen oe u bitch.u got nowhere to run lah sial!stop insulting people.u are no better than anyone else.GROW UP BITCHES!!!! THIS POST GOES TO MARISSA N HAZIQAH

`Zarifah here updating

Oh hello there people ! In case you don't know. This is not Nazira. Zarifah here turh update Nazira's blog for her. As you can see, her blog is dead. Hahah ! Zarifah turh th' rescue. Okay, so Nazira told me that I want turh update her blog or change th' blogskin or whatevearr just do. Awesome right? Hahah. Eventho I have my own blog, I kinda like updating for others. So, hahah. Whatevearr Zarifah. Okay Nazira, I update already. Next time I change th' blogskin. Now it's late. I have turh sleep. Goodnights ! <3


I love Nazira ! She's a great friend/ sister ! Cheer up okay pretty head. You deserve someone who appreciates you. And turh that guy, Nazira really loves you yknow. Eventho we as her friends told her many times turh forget about you and move on, cause we don't want turh see her sad, she keeps on waiting for you. She may say that she's over you now. But soon, she will start saying that she misses you and she still love you. I know cause I've heard it tons of times. So, if you really have a heart, please don't cheat other people's feelings. If you don't love them, th' least you can do is turh tell them th' truth. Don't be a coward ayye.


Till here ! Chalo ! <3

I miss you

Malam ku tidur tak lena. Teringatkan dirimu. Terimbas kembali kenangan lalu, alangkah indahnya bersamamu. Mengalir airmataku menemani malam sepiku. Ku rindu saat bersamamu. Sukarnya untukku melupakan mu. Dahulu engkau berikan cinta. Mengapa kini engkau berubah? Manakah janji akan setia menanti? Jikalau engkau tak lagi cinta katakan saja aku tak kisah. Dari kau terus membuat ku menunggu. Tak ku sangka, tak ku duga. Perpisahan yang akan melanda. Dah ku cuba pertahankan. Namun dirimu pergi jua. Cintamu bagaikan rembulan yang hadir bila malam menjelang. Kau hilang bila siang mendatang. Begitulah sikapmu oh sayang. Kau lontar cintaku di tepian. Ku bagaikan hanyut di lautan. Dipukul gelombang keresahan.


If you ever read this, honestly speaking I still love you. How is it even possiblefor me to overcome this moment after 10 months. A new date don't do me any better. Hmph... Can I have a chance to talk to you? At least once. I miss you like crazy. I miss the smile on your face, your laughter, the way you call me sayang and many more. Losing you means a lot to me. Why must all this happen? I wish I could turn back time. I can't help it but to cry every night. How I wish I could erase all those memories. I treasure the times when I'm with you. Haix... Still remember the time when you first hold my hand and your warmth hug make me feel safe, loved and comfortable. I want you back. I reakky do.

I'M HURT!!!

Haix... Wander wat u're doing right now. It's hard for me to forget about. All those sweet moments make me cry. It's tears of joy and tears of hurt. Why must you leave me when I'm gonna have my prelims. I applied dpa at tp just for you. Hope you're happy. Klau u sayang i, u carik i. Klau tak forget it. Mane pergi sume janji u. Apa salah i? Pernah ke i uat salah kat u? Fuck zaza! Hmph... Since the day u start to ignore me, it hurts even more. I dunno wat to do at this moment. Suppose u are right here when I need you. I'm sorry if I uat u marah or stuff. Klau bleh i want u back tapi nak uat mcm ne org dh tk sayang. I dgn "rela hati" lepaskan u. Hope u are happy with her. All the best in ur career. Love you so much! Bye!!! *sobs*

so troublesome seyh...

i'm kind of regret taking f&n seyh...a lot of things to be done in one day.like wat the fuck.pnt seyh...the whole i the com lab doing fnn.haiya...

someone help me...

i dunno what to do right now.i just miss him so much lah seyh.what am i suppose to do.i feel like crying right now.can i possibly go somewhere far from here.i want him by my side.we can only meet in june.and that's like a few more weeks sey.haix............b....i miss u so much...i nk meet u as soon as possible.dat day we kind of gaduh bt i'm so sorry..i dun mean to say all those things that i said to you.i hate myself for saying things that i shouldn't have.i really really am sorry.all i want you to noe that i lurve you so much!!!muackz!!!!

i lurve you muhammad nur ikhmal bin yusof...

i miss you like crazy!!!!

HAIX......

i miss you like crazy seyh....i'm a bit sad bcoz he put down the phone while i'm talking for like 3 times lah sey.geram pn ade.but wat to do.i have to be rerally really patient.DUN WANT TO TALK MUCH COZ IT HURTS A LOT......boohoo....

YEAH!!!!!

i'm so so happy.i get to meet him at last.hee...!!!i can't believe it sey.i get to hug him...heee!!!! Men seni senrem which means i love u in Azerbaijan.hehe...OMG!!!i want to him agi.....really really want to spend the whole day with him.kae kae got to get back to work...buhbye.i love ikhmal!!!!muackz!!!!

I Need You Now

My baby, i need you now

Please take me by the hand

Stand by me in my hour of need.

Take time to understand

Take my hand, my dear,

And lead me from this place.

Chase away my doubts and fears,

Wipe the tears from off my face.

Baby, i can't stand alone.

I need your hand to hold,

The warmth of your gentle touch

In my world that's grown so cold.

Please be a sweetheart to me,

And hold me day by day.

Because with your loving hand in mine,

I know we'll find the way...

Two Of Me

I never thiught i'd find myself

the day that i found you.

Plans for only

one of me

are future plans for

two.

Soul mates in this universe

that make the worl surreal.

For when i'd given up on dreams

you showed me love is real.

And how that all my love for you

will never cease to grow,

Please take me in your loving arms

and never let me go....

50 most romantic things

1. Watch the sunset together.

 

2. Whisper to each other.

 

3.. Cook for each other.

 

4. Walk in the rain.

 

5. Hold hands

 

6. Buy gifts for each other.

 

7. Roses.

 

8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time

you're together.

 

9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.

 

10. Write poetry for each other.

 

11. Hugs are the universal medicine.

 

12. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.

 

13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.

 

14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie!

 

15. Spend every second possible together.

 

16. Look into each other's eyes.

 

17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you

love her, and kiss her lightly.

 

18. When in public, only flirt with each other.

 

19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking.

 

20. Buy her a ring.

 

21. Sing to each other.

 

22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.

 

23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal.

 

24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)

 

25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it

over your heart.

 

26. Dance together.

 

27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with

her head in my lap.

 

28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have

to look in a mirror to read it.

 

29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes

 

30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to

call and say I love you.

 

31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.

 

32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.

 

34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.

 

35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.

 

36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.

 

37. Hang out with his/her friends.

 

38. Go to church/pray/worship together.

 

39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.

 

40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.

 

41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.

 

42. Make sacrifices for each other.

 

43. Really love each other, or don't stay together.

 

44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't

thinking about them, and make sure they know it.

 

45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.

46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.

 

47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.

 

48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.

 

49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.

 

50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, 'Sweet dreams.'

This is a chain letter. It originated in Guyana in the late 1800's. It

was cursed by a indigenous witch doctor.

DEEP INSIDE

Standing on the beach
Sand between my toes
What lies in my future?
Who will come and go?
The sun beams down upon me,
As i raise my head and look
At the vast ocean before me,
It's size, which i mistook.
I feel so insignificant,
compared to this great expanse.
What difference can i make?
Will i even be given a chance?
I realise then while standing there.
that all i have to do, is to listen to my heart,And it will pull me through.
For strength and inspiration
Are not material things,
They come from deep inside of you,
they give your soul its wings.
So whenever you're in doubt,
and you begin to stray,
take a look down deep inside,
And answer will come your way.
If you only believe in yourself,
you can make your dreams come true
For no one else can do it,
The power must come from you...

yea yea....

2 more weeks to the prelims sey...argh!!!scared scared.but nvrmnd i'll do my very best to get what i want and make people proud of me.hehe...now i have a new havit.that is to drink red bull early in the morning.and i'll get really happy and giler in school.i eat a lot nowadays.i'm gaining weight again.oh no no...got to diet again to get back into shape.but he says that it's okae for me to gain weight.kae kae...i lurve u so i'll listen to you kae....i really think that my mum knows about me n him.mcm ner nie????shld i tell him or not that my mum knows.bt how did my mum know about it.ish ish ish.impossible lah seh....relax relax.tkmo kecoh kecoh.now what shld i talk about?oh ya.thanx for hafiz for the him.thanx buddy....to my classmates study hard people.we can do it...lets go for it!!!!!

i miss u and i love u!!!!

real boyfriend

When she stares at your mouthKiss herWhen she pushes you or hits you like a dummie cause she thinks shes
stronger than you
Grab her and dont let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her
When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong
When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls awayPull her back
When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start cryingJust hold her and don't say a word
When you see her walkingSneak up and hug her waist from behind <3When she's scared
Protect her
When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night
When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh
When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay
When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up
When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand
When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers
When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laughWhen she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold
When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she doesWhen she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers
When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it
- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because ten years later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Don't talk about other girls around her

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"

sorry...

i'm so sorry bby...i promise that i won't hurt u.u wasn't there when i need someone to talk to.so that's wat i did...it's getting from bad to worst.it's affecting me badly.i failed my social studies.i'm so sad.but it's okae.i know that i've tried my very best.i'll do harder for my upcoming test.i'm sorry for disturbing u during work...i lurve u!muackz!!!

i promise u that:

- i won't hurt

- i will always be there for for

- i'll always lurve

- u're the only one

- i'll treasure you

- and a lot more

*sobs*

cry cry cry.that's all i can do...i'm so sad over u.is smethng wrong? can u tell me wats on ur mind....i'm sad sad sad.i'm so sorry if i hurt u.bt i dun mean it.the older post kn, i'm not refering to u...if u think i'm talking about u then i'm sorry...i want to talk tou.i need to talk to u.i need smeone to talk to at this moment.pls b....talk to me...i beg u...i'm always crying over the past 5 days....pls....i miss u.....B!!!!!pls pls pls pls pls ls....

Another Statistic

i don't want to be another statistic

some suicidal teen

who makes a choice to kill herself

when the world just seems to mean.

she can't go on eith life

or so to her it seems

reality has fallen short

and so have her many dreams

i don't want to be another statistic

some stereotypical teen

i'm gonna make a difference

i'll finish with my dream.

i won't end up pregnant

on drugs or even dead

i won't drop out of school

because i'll use my head

i don't want to be another statistic

to fit into some mold

of what society thinks of kids today

because it's getting kind of old.

not all of us are bad

in fact most of us are good

when will the world see us

and give us credit like they should?

i cannot tahan already!!!!

who does he thnk i am?i've got a lot of stuff to do.i'm unable to manage the problems in sch, at home and many more...how am i able to?i feel like screaming out loud sey...i feel like running away from home too.

*sobs* i just wish that my baby is rite by my side right now.i really need u.but i understand that u're busy.what should i do right now?some1 help!am i that bad?am i that useless?do i really deserve this...?i wanna live a life like the other teenagers do.have fun with friends, study together and stuff.i'm a normal teenager.u cannot always ask me not to do this and that.i have the right to make a choice of mine.doesn't he have the brain.i just come back from school everyday and he's there trying his best to spot my wrongdoings.why?pls tell me why?why do you damp me so much...u're the one who spoiled me.think back lah sey and fuck off! i'm sick and tired of u! why must i face u everyday....!

i really don't know what to do in my life.but the important thing i must keep my promise that i've made with my bby and do my best and i will always be with my bby....i promise dear...

by my baby

To my beautiful princess. I miss you so much. I just want you to know that despite how busy the both of us are, you are and will always be in my heart. I want the best for you. I want you to always be happy when you're with me. I want to grow old with you by my side & be the reason why you always have a smile on your face. I love you b. I do with all my heart. I don't want anyone else but you. I want you to know that you are the reason why I'm happy lately & I want the both of us to be happy & living a life that's full of joy and smiles. B. If you can, try to aim for JC. It'll be good for you. But whatever your choice, I will always support the decisions you make. I nak my baby to be happy always.

No matter what, I am thankful to have your presence in my life. I will never ever have any regrets being with you and I hope the same of you. Sayang, I hope we can spend a day together. Even for a short while. We can just spend the time in the room, cuddling with each other. I don't want anyone else to be with but you b. Please know that no matter what, it's you that I love and want to be with. & do look after yourself. I want my baby to be healthy. Muackzz!!!! I love you!!!!!! I can't wait to be with you. Hopefully soon. For now, I'll always look at your pictures and blog to remind me of you. Til the day we meet k dear. Muackzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!! he reads my blog...

i'm surprised when he say that he view my blog everyday....but it's okae.at least i know wat he's doing kn.he's the most sweetest guy that i ever met sey.he never fails to put a smile on my face.to my baby, i know u're sad but i'll try my best to find a way to meet u kae.tkmo sad2....i'll always be there for you like u're always there for me....i got to do my work now....got a lot alot....lurve you baby...muackz...

hahax...i'm so happy.my baby know how to cook and he knows how to make oreo cheesecake.i love cakes....i'm so happy that we are meant to be together sey.i miss him so much.hey!!!my results are fantastic.i got 4A1s, 1A2 and 2B4s.it's like wow!i love oit lah sey....i'm so porud of my results.oh my.this post got to be short.i got my coursework to do.buhbye......

AAAAARRRRGGGGHHH!!!!

*sobs* i cannot tahan already.there is so much work to be done this days.exam dates are getting closer.i get so messed up.my mood swings easily.this is all because of what i am going through this year.i wonder how is it possible for the graduated students coped withy their studies.now i am rushing and lost doing the f&n 'o' level question.i'm so stress!!!! *hands on my head and scream* oh my gucci!!!why oh why?btw i'm goging to the mmusical this saturday...i'm so excited lah sey.for the very 1st time i'm able to go out for the class outing.can't wait people can't wait.but i have to go for flag day on wednesday.boring.......hahax.i'm missing him so much but it's okay.at least i can concentrate on my stuff.life is complicated....and life must go on.....

oh my prada....

haix....i'm counting down to the days to o levels.i'm so stress...can't imagine what is going to happen during the o levels.so far i am coping with all the subjects and for the first time i get an A for my comb humanities...i'm so happy sia....for my F&N there is still lots of work to be done lah sey.tired...but it's okae i'll try my best...

i miss my baby boy so much.haven't been talking to him for a few days sei....aww...i misssssssssss yyoooooouuuuuu ikhmal.And i lurve you so much Mr.Ikhmal..hahax....hope to hear from you so soon.i got lots of stories to tell you...

lastly i can't wait to go to BREAKOUT babeh!!!!!!!wooooooohoooooo!!!!!!!!

buhbye darls...muackz.....

this is life....

i meet a lot of different kind of people these few days.i just get to noe that i have a secret admirer.i dunno who he is...i kept wondering every single day.hmm...and there's these stalker that knows everything about me.i'm kind of scared sei...but no matter what is still lurve my on e n only baby boy, ikhmal...there's no words to describe how much i lurve him.
lately, i'm having some problems with my dad.i don't understand why he is against me.whai did i do wrong?what's his problem?argh...i'm so upset about it.i'm trying my best not to burst whenevr he talk to me sey...it's okae...just a few more months to o level....u can do it nazira....kae go...

my memory....

the very 1st msg when he sound stead me....

i may not be yours, but i'm always there for you.I may not be someone, but these feelings i have are true.Your smile brings a warmth to me, a joy that keeps me smiling happily.From the start till the end i want to be more than just a friend.Be the one who cares, and wipe away your tears.The one who'll make you laugh and rid you of your fears.So take my hand, we'll take a ride.So in our dreams we go, but before that goodnight...

one is mine n on is ikhmal's...
need to keep this as this is only thing i have to make me remember about u...

oh gosh...i lurve him so much...my love for him is getting stronger as days goes by.i dunno how to express my feelings towards him.it's just happening just like dat.but i wonder if he feels the same thing like i do.hmm.......maybe yes maybe no.but i told me about the feelings i trusted him.i want our relationship to last a lifetime. at the same time im very bz wif my o levels n stuff.almost everyday i will end school at about 5...penat sia...but i'll try my best to tahan till the end.i want to finish my o levels this time.no more slacking and stuff.and i've promise him to take care of myself as he is not around.i lurve u so much ikmal...muackz...