Another Statistic

i don't want to be another statistic

some suicidal teen

who makes a choice to kill herself

when the world just seems to mean.

she can't go on eith life

or so to her it seems

reality has fallen short

and so have her many dreams

i don't want to be another statistic

some stereotypical teen

i'm gonna make a difference

i'll finish with my dream.

i won't end up pregnant

on drugs or even dead

i won't drop out of school

because i'll use my head

i don't want to be another statistic

to fit into some mold

of what society thinks of kids today

because it's getting kind of old.

not all of us are bad

in fact most of us are good

when will the world see us

and give us credit like they should?

i cannot tahan already!!!!

who does he thnk i am?i've got a lot of stuff to do.i'm unable to manage the problems in sch, at home and many more...how am i able to?i feel like screaming out loud sey...i feel like running away from home too.

*sobs* i just wish that my baby is rite by my side right now.i really need u.but i understand that u're busy.what should i do right now?some1 help!am i that bad?am i that useless?do i really deserve this...?i wanna live a life like the other teenagers do.have fun with friends, study together and stuff.i'm a normal teenager.u cannot always ask me not to do this and that.i have the right to make a choice of mine.doesn't he have the brain.i just come back from school everyday and he's there trying his best to spot my wrongdoings.why?pls tell me why?why do you damp me so much...u're the one who spoiled me.think back lah sey and fuck off! i'm sick and tired of u! why must i face u everyday....!

i really don't know what to do in my life.but the important thing i must keep my promise that i've made with my bby and do my best and i will always be with my bby....i promise dear...

by my baby

To my beautiful princess. I miss you so much. I just want you to know that despite how busy the both of us are, you are and will always be in my heart. I want the best for you. I want you to always be happy when you're with me. I want to grow old with you by my side & be the reason why you always have a smile on your face. I love you b. I do with all my heart. I don't want anyone else but you. I want you to know that you are the reason why I'm happy lately & I want the both of us to be happy & living a life that's full of joy and smiles. B. If you can, try to aim for JC. It'll be good for you. But whatever your choice, I will always support the decisions you make. I nak my baby to be happy always.

No matter what, I am thankful to have your presence in my life. I will never ever have any regrets being with you and I hope the same of you. Sayang, I hope we can spend a day together. Even for a short while. We can just spend the time in the room, cuddling with each other. I don't want anyone else to be with but you b. Please know that no matter what, it's you that I love and want to be with. & do look after yourself. I want my baby to be healthy. Muackzz!!!! I love you!!!!!! I can't wait to be with you. Hopefully soon. For now, I'll always look at your pictures and blog to remind me of you. Til the day we meet k dear. Muackzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!! he reads my blog...

i'm surprised when he say that he view my blog everyday....but it's okae.at least i know wat he's doing kn.he's the most sweetest guy that i ever met sey.he never fails to put a smile on my face.to my baby, i know u're sad but i'll try my best to find a way to meet u kae.tkmo sad2....i'll always be there for you like u're always there for me....i got to do my work now....got a lot alot....lurve you baby...muackz...